FOrGivE Me

To those people who used to be my friends..and to those who used to care about me..before~


Im so sorry..maybe ive hurt u guys without me realizing it..I didnt mean it maybe..yeah i

know..i was too selfish, ego n heartless to understand all the pain u kept inside..becoz of ME!

u guys can blame me for all things happened in ur life..i deserve it..

Im so sorry for all my wrong doings, and sorry if i had raised my voice towards you all..

and Im so sorry if ive ruined ur life..if Im the reason why u didnt get what u want in ur life..

yeah..BLAME ME!and let me carry all these thing alone..Coz u all deserve a better life, rite?

I know..i dont deserve to ask for anything rite now..But, please dont "throw" me away in ur life

and acted as if u didnt recognize me at all..i tell you..it hurts me MOST!please..i beg you..

stop punishing me like this..GOD already gave me a lesson coz.. now, all things ive done to you or

to anyone ive hurt before, are playing like a video in my every dream..and i cant stop blaming

myself for not being a good PERSON to you...

A second chance? i dont desrve it rite?but, thats the thing IM ASKING FOR...a second chance..

Please let me be ur friend..again..please let me fix all these..and please appreciate me..again..

i know..some of u might be reading this ..or some not..if u are reading this, and if u were the one

been hurt by ME, please do forgive me..please..

The word "sorry" was my least fav word before..but now, only this word in my mind..

I read something that might be useful for you as well as me..


" berterima kasih lah kepada mereka yang menyakiti kamu..kerana mereka telah mengajar

kamu erti kehidupan dan merasai erti kesakitan..dan jangan sekali kamu memusuhi mereka..

malah, jika mereka masih belum berubah, pimpin lah mereka untuk berubah"


After reading this, i think that i still have a chance to change and fix everything...even though i

know its only less than 10% for me


BUT PLEASE GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCE...and PLEASE LET ME SLEEP IN PEACE..AGAIN....

WorKing, then its timE FoR = WeEKeNDs..hihih

hurm..yup! im already employed..but then only as a temporary staff at MAS..erm..ok laa its better for me to start working and gain an experience rather than sitting at home and chatting all day long!but im still waiting for the right job..even though im still a bit MALAS.. hehe..my first day of work was on last Friday..lucky me cuz the next day, is SATURDAY! and me, ibu and the "baBBooNs" had to go back to Melaka for my cousin's engagement..HooRay!! (erm..not for the engagement thingy, but act, i LOVE Melaka)hihih..

erm..sorry dun have the pics of the engagement event la..cuz im not interested to join the "old folks" group to do the "engage" job..hahah..Sorry ibu cuz u were one of those people!hihihi

so, me and few of the "cipanzees" (nickname for my cousins..and they are all younger than me!) were soo damn bored and we started to play with the cameras..and here are the results...huhuh

me and shaqira..she's 16

me and shamimi..she's 13yrs old.. (qiera's sis)

me and the poyo eifa..she 16 also..

me and wardina..pakndak's daughter..she's 6..hehe

Pakndak suggested to watch the "midnight" movie at MBO Melaka..and there were 12 of us sitting at the centre of the cinema and the "babboOnS + CipAnzees" really cant stop making noise..!but all Of THEM fell asleep at the middle of the movie..what a waste!hehe..and we watched BATMAN : THE DARK KNIGHT..

herm..i LOVE Heath Ledger!he's sooo talented..n i love when he, (the joker) lick his lips..really Psycho!hehe..

erm..WhY So SeriOus Ek?

huhuh..and the next day,we went to atok's house..to get all the rambutans that atok plugged for us..satu guni wey! and here are the pics at atok's..

atok's vespa..me, areez n eifa..

farhan n eifa..

the crazeE Cipanzee..hahha

hurm..ok..thats all for now..chiow~

MAkaN + mAkAN + mAKaN = +++KGs



haha..this time, apan's house!


apan : ude aku nak buat makan2 kat umah..ade ape idea nak buat ape?

ude : buat bbq la..senan cket kot~ ajak saper?

apan: those yg area shah alam jer la..

ude : ok..

apan : kalo nk bawak pape, ok gak..

ude : okeh..aku bwk coleslaw n nasi goreng la..

apan: jgn bwk byk2..dekda dah kata die nak bawak body jer.. (yup!mmg dekda bwk body jer)hehe..start 8pm



i was the the first person who arrived at apan's..then, bulu n huda husin arrived around 8.30..dekda n hanim laa yg last skalik smpai..9.00pm! hhuhuh..dekda, u really have to change ur watch's batt laa..hehe..

n here come all the "causes" of +++KGs! hehe..



kuew teow + nasi goreng + ayam + coleslaw + salad + sirap laici (not in d pic)..hehe


ok..lepas makan, time for FOTOGEDIK lak!

me n bulu..

my so called "OLD RIVAL"..me (the rulesbreaker) n huda ( prefect disiplin!)haha..

the "sexual harasser"..haha..just joking dekda!

i took half of da space!

d cute me n the crazy dekda..again!

and here we are..HOT GOSSIPERZ!! and we are all insured ok!

WHY I KEEP ON REMEMBERING EVERYTHING???


why?why me?i keep on remembering every single thing in my life.. why should i? i know, im supposed to be really thankful for it..but..i dont wanna remember everything! i hate it..i hate it coz i cant let go those people whom i used to love, to care the most, and all the bad things ever happened to me..it hurts me most of the time..i hate it when those thing came into my dreams even though i wasnt thinking bout them when i was awake..why?i cant take it anymore...!there are no more tears for me to cry...coz ive already used all of it!