jiwa kacau..

ya...jiwa aku kacau sekarang...

jiwa aku kosong...hati aku sakit...tuhan saje yg tahu ape perasaan aku kali nih..

hendak aku mengadu..tapi pada siapa?..

ingin saje aku memberontak..pergi jauh meninggalkan semua nye..

ya..aku boleh lari..tapi sampai bila??

aku harus berdepan dgn semuanya..aku harus bersedia..

bersedia dgn kehilangan harta yang paling aku sayang..

harta yang membuatkan aku terus hidup selama 23 tahun ini..

entah la..susah nak di gambarkan dgn kata2..

kerana kecewa dlm hati aku ini tak siapa pon tahu..

sudah puas aku menangis..sudah puas aku meratap nasib hidup aku ini..

semakin hari aku rasakan aku semakin lemah..

kerana jiwa aku kosong..tiada lagi secebis rasa gembira..

tiada lagi secebis rasa bahagia..

hanya yang ada..hampa..kecewa..pasrah dgn segalanya..

andai ini dugaan dari Mu untukku & mereka yg tidak berdosa,

aku menyerah...kerana tidak sanggup lagi aku menghadapi semua ini......

BEFORE & AFTER RAYA

hurm..

sorry for not updating for quite a while..been busy with work and life..

on jumaat a week before raya..me, apan n alut went to klia to give our last gudbye to ayna makkang..hehe..

these are the pictures..ade nadd + balak,buna + balak,ichik +balak, pear+her cousin, the very single & available me and apan , also single but not available alut..heheh


the happy us..

this is the MOST VALUEBLE PIc i think...tgk ayna..AYNA CIUM KETIAK UDE!!!!haha.. i bet, ayna been missing me to da max since this pic was taken..=)

..ok..these are raya pics.. first of all, let me introduce u guys to the so called "comforter"..hahah..

huhuhu..comfort food..or food for comfort..or comfort for food...heheh.. we've got..rendang daging here..sambal udang, rendang kerang..rendang itik, kuah kacang, serunding kelapa and asam pedas itik..

itik? yup..this is annual menu for raya!..never miss..tell you wat?itik is just as sedap as ayam! try la! ok..close up sket..

this is the rendang itik.."duck"..hehe..and after the "cooking session ended", time for cleaning session...

kitchen environment...heh!

living room environment..



akikuya..tell you wat, now, she can sing apek's song (aspalela) and also matta band song (ketahuan)..damn cute!

ok..this one during raya..eventhough we didnt manage to go to the studio..but i think..ni pon OK lah..rite?


so, Selamat Hari Raya..(raya sebulan kan?)..heheh

ayah+ ibu = abang, me, farhan n fareez..they complete me, and i complete them..erk..betol ker ayat nih? hentam saja laa LABI..hehe

IMPORTANT!!

to any parents or future parents who read this blog,

DONT...

-you ever BLAME your son/daughter of how they behave..
-you ever BLAME your son/daughter for being wild..
-you ever BLAME your son/daughter for taking drugs..
-you ever BLAME your son/daughter for coming back home late everyday..
-you ever BLAME your son/daughter for not performing well in exams..
-you ever BLAME your son/daughter for not being there for you...



WHY..??

ONLY 1 reason....

becoz its ALL YOUR FAULT!!

-you are the reason why your own child behave like a F***
-you are the reason why your own son/daughter hated being at home..
-you are the reason why your own son/daughter showing their protess by taking drugs..

why is that soo..?

- maybe they knew something that they should not..
-maybe they saw something that they should not..
-maybe they heard something that they should not..
-maybe they found something that they should not..
-maybe the way they been treated by YOU..
...or...
-maybe they have secrets/ problems that hard for them to tell you..

YOU just HAVE to REALISE..and ACT before ITS TOO DAMN LATE!..


HOME is where the FAMILY lives in..where LOVE should be GROWING each day...

but i JUST feel like..

HOME is NOTHING for me..it's just as empty as a box!

selamat Hari raya

before its too late for me to wish..mmm

to all my blog readers,

sorry if i did anything wrong,

sorry if i have hurt you in any ways,

sorry for any jokes that u cant accept,

sorry for everything..

Selamat Hari Raya!

ME & AraBianS

hmmm..me and arabians??



ok..these are the connections...

1) this is me, in my office..im working at MAS for Saudi Airlines...

this is one of my boss..Mr Abd Rahman a.k.a Farouq (kumpulan gagak hitam)..hehe! he's BL*** arabian..u shud hear the way he talk..cm nak buat RappIng!hahaha

this is my fav boss..mr abdullah..he's soo sporting..and im his new BM teacher!..the first sentense he said to me was.."saya mahu cium bibir kamu"..OMG! he loves laughing and singing too!

this one is mr khaleed..mm..he's nice too..but a bit bad tempered..he will throw anything on his table that is not HIS belongings, without asking first!but when he's on "the right track", he's OK! his job is to inspect all components in the aircraft..every single thing..the cabins, the doors,the lavatories, the coffee makers and even a small thing..thats a lot of work actually..

and, he brought me to see the aircraft...the Saudi Arabian aircraft..

the next saudi airlines' cabin crew!hahah..

ok..some of u guys knew that dad's working in Arab..(another connection)..heh..n this is dad's fren, ummu turki..(actually her name is najwa)..ummu turki stands for "turki's mum"..thats wat we called her coz its the way to show some respect to her..

buka puasa @ palace of d golden horses with umi..

me and her youngest daughter,maria..

i wonder laa..maybe my future hubby will be an arabian man too..hahah..OMG!

chow chendolicious

WHY DIDnt ANYONE TELL ME!??

hurm..y d heck that no one tells me bout HARRY POTTER & THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE ( movie) been delayed to JULY 2009???

so.. frustrated..

have to wait for nearly a year more!

marahnyer!!!

RaMAdHAn....

to all Readers, (if i had laa)huhu


SelamAt menyAmbuT bUlan RamaDhan Al-Mubarak..