FOrGivE Me

To those people who used to be my friends..and to those who used to care about me..before~


Im so sorry..maybe ive hurt u guys without me realizing it..I didnt mean it maybe..yeah i

know..i was too selfish, ego n heartless to understand all the pain u kept inside..becoz of ME!

u guys can blame me for all things happened in ur life..i deserve it..

Im so sorry for all my wrong doings, and sorry if i had raised my voice towards you all..

and Im so sorry if ive ruined ur life..if Im the reason why u didnt get what u want in ur life..

yeah..BLAME ME!and let me carry all these thing alone..Coz u all deserve a better life, rite?

I know..i dont deserve to ask for anything rite now..But, please dont "throw" me away in ur life

and acted as if u didnt recognize me at all..i tell you..it hurts me MOST!please..i beg you..

stop punishing me like this..GOD already gave me a lesson coz.. now, all things ive done to you or

to anyone ive hurt before, are playing like a video in my every dream..and i cant stop blaming

myself for not being a good PERSON to you...

A second chance? i dont desrve it rite?but, thats the thing IM ASKING FOR...a second chance..

Please let me be ur friend..again..please let me fix all these..and please appreciate me..again..

i know..some of u might be reading this ..or some not..if u are reading this, and if u were the one

been hurt by ME, please do forgive me..please..

The word "sorry" was my least fav word before..but now, only this word in my mind..

I read something that might be useful for you as well as me..


" berterima kasih lah kepada mereka yang menyakiti kamu..kerana mereka telah mengajar

kamu erti kehidupan dan merasai erti kesakitan..dan jangan sekali kamu memusuhi mereka..

malah, jika mereka masih belum berubah, pimpin lah mereka untuk berubah"


After reading this, i think that i still have a chance to change and fix everything...even though i

know its only less than 10% for me


BUT PLEASE GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCE...and PLEASE LET ME SLEEP IN PEACE..AGAIN....

WorKing, then its timE FoR = WeEKeNDs..hihih

hurm..yup! im already employed..but then only as a temporary staff at MAS..erm..ok laa its better for me to start working and gain an experience rather than sitting at home and chatting all day long!but im still waiting for the right job..even though im still a bit MALAS.. hehe..my first day of work was on last Friday..lucky me cuz the next day, is SATURDAY! and me, ibu and the "baBBooNs" had to go back to Melaka for my cousin's engagement..HooRay!! (erm..not for the engagement thingy, but act, i LOVE Melaka)hihih..

erm..sorry dun have the pics of the engagement event la..cuz im not interested to join the "old folks" group to do the "engage" job..hahah..Sorry ibu cuz u were one of those people!hihihi

so, me and few of the "cipanzees" (nickname for my cousins..and they are all younger than me!) were soo damn bored and we started to play with the cameras..and here are the results...huhuh

me and shaqira..she's 16

me and shamimi..she's 13yrs old.. (qiera's sis)

me and the poyo eifa..she 16 also..

me and wardina..pakndak's daughter..she's 6..hehe

Pakndak suggested to watch the "midnight" movie at MBO Melaka..and there were 12 of us sitting at the centre of the cinema and the "babboOnS + CipAnzees" really cant stop making noise..!but all Of THEM fell asleep at the middle of the movie..what a waste!hehe..and we watched BATMAN : THE DARK KNIGHT..

herm..i LOVE Heath Ledger!he's sooo talented..n i love when he, (the joker) lick his lips..really Psycho!hehe..

erm..WhY So SeriOus Ek?

huhuh..and the next day,we went to atok's house..to get all the rambutans that atok plugged for us..satu guni wey! and here are the pics at atok's..

atok's vespa..me, areez n eifa..

farhan n eifa..

the crazeE Cipanzee..hahha

hurm..ok..thats all for now..chiow~

MAkaN + mAkAN + mAKaN = +++KGs



haha..this time, apan's house!


apan : ude aku nak buat makan2 kat umah..ade ape idea nak buat ape?

ude : buat bbq la..senan cket kot~ ajak saper?

apan: those yg area shah alam jer la..

ude : ok..

apan : kalo nk bawak pape, ok gak..

ude : okeh..aku bwk coleslaw n nasi goreng la..

apan: jgn bwk byk2..dekda dah kata die nak bawak body jer.. (yup!mmg dekda bwk body jer)hehe..start 8pm



i was the the first person who arrived at apan's..then, bulu n huda husin arrived around 8.30..dekda n hanim laa yg last skalik smpai..9.00pm! hhuhuh..dekda, u really have to change ur watch's batt laa..hehe..

n here come all the "causes" of +++KGs! hehe..



kuew teow + nasi goreng + ayam + coleslaw + salad + sirap laici (not in d pic)..hehe


ok..lepas makan, time for FOTOGEDIK lak!

me n bulu..

my so called "OLD RIVAL"..me (the rulesbreaker) n huda ( prefect disiplin!)haha..

the "sexual harasser"..haha..just joking dekda!

i took half of da space!

d cute me n the crazy dekda..again!

and here we are..HOT GOSSIPERZ!! and we are all insured ok!

WHY I KEEP ON REMEMBERING EVERYTHING???


why?why me?i keep on remembering every single thing in my life.. why should i? i know, im supposed to be really thankful for it..but..i dont wanna remember everything! i hate it..i hate it coz i cant let go those people whom i used to love, to care the most, and all the bad things ever happened to me..it hurts me most of the time..i hate it when those thing came into my dreams even though i wasnt thinking bout them when i was awake..why?i cant take it anymore...!there are no more tears for me to cry...coz ive already used all of it!

ANgeLinA JoLiE..THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMAN ON EARTH!











i think most of u guys knew that i really2 admire angie soo damn much..after i watched Tomb Raider in 2001, OMG! that was a great video-game action movie..


after that, i started to watch 3/4 of all her films..i read hundreds of articles bout her and watched thousands of interviews videos..to cut it short, as long as angie in it,I'LL WATCH IT!




ok..i'll tell u guys what i know bout this lovely lady..







she was born on 4th june 1975 which makes her 33 years old this year..


she dropped off her middle name which is her father's name "Voight"..becoz of that, her father, Jon Voight claims that angie had a mental problem..

she was known as a Kissing Gurl when she was in kindergarten coz she loves kissing boys and give them something cute as a token after that..hahah..

if im not mistaken, she started having sex when she was 14 years old..and that time also she started to love cutting and hurting herself..(self destruction)..she loves knives..and really skillfull in playing with them..she dreamed of becoming a funeral director one day..hahah

she married couples of time..1st with Johnny Lee Miller..the star in Hackers besides her..

after divorced with JLM, she married to Billy Bob Thornton star in Pushing Tin besides her..then, divorce..

and now, her DOMESTIC PARTNER is Brad Pitt..

there's 1 more..she also a bisexual...she had once in love with Jenny Shimizu..the star in Foxfire..she said that, she fell in love with Jenny the first second she saw Jenny..bcoz she thinks that Jenny is a beautiful woman..

from my observation, angie loves playing her lips with her fingers when she had nothing to do...i think, she has about 13 tattoos on her body..there are 3 tattoos that i really2 like..1 is on her back, across her neck..written "know your rights" ,another one is on her stomach, written in Latin but the meaning in English is "what nourishes me destroys me" and another 1 is a quote on her left forearm "a prayer for the wild at heart,kept in cages"..

talking bout tattoos, brad also has a tatoo..which angie herself draw at brad's lower back..heheh..soo sweet!

she has 3 adopted children and 1 biological child with the handsome brad pitt..



1st child name Maddox Jolie-Pitt..a Combodian boy..she calls Maddox as Madness..OMG..how cute that is!hehe..angie has a POTTY DANCE steps with Mad, when Mad learned to potty trained..





2nd child Zahara Jolie-Pitt..an Ethiopia gurl..the latest that i know, maybe angie will be looking foward for another adoption because she dont want Zahara to feel alienated for being the only "black" in the family..







3rd child name Pax Thien Jolie- Pitt..a Vietnam boy (older than Zahara)..actually she adopted Pax after giving birth to her biological child with brad..mm..what i know bout Pax, he LOVES to jump..huhuh..most of the pictures or videos i watched, he was jumping at that momment..heh..soo cute~!yeah..1 of the reasons why angie adopted Pax bcoz,she wanted another Asian child to accompany Madness..hehe







4th child which is her biological child with Brad Pitt..Shiloh Nouvel Jolie-Pitt.. OMG! shiloh has angie's lips,eyes and brad's nose..imagine how adorable she is?hehe..




Angelina Jolie is now waiting for her TWINS..due in August..cant wait to see them..




Angie's favourite word is NOW..

Least fav word is NO..

Fav sound, when her children laughing..

Non Fav sound, children in pain..

Angie's curse word is FUCK..hahah..





erm..dont be misunderstood here..im a straight gurl..im not lesbian or bisexual either..what makes me love angie is not only because of her acting..but also because of her humanitarian work.. she is the ambassador for UNHCR..she travels a lot to help people..she travelled to Pakistan, Africa, Iraq, Cambodia..she really wanted to reduce the poverty problems in those countries..what a big heart of Angie!



after watching videos to videos and flims to films.. and reading lot of articles bout her and journals of her humanitarian work, its all makes me more "in love" with Angelina Jolie..erm..dont be misunderstood again!hehe.. i really hope that 1 fine day, i will get the opportunity to meet her, becoz she hd opened up my eyes not to complaint bout anything!Oh GOD,help me!..




ok..take care everyone!and dont forget to watch Angie's new movie..WANTED! ive watched it on the 1st opening day!heheh

HaPPy BiRthDay Ude!!

21 jun...

1st of all, thanx to those yg still can remember this date.. my lovely kakak :kak cibom, my bestest fren, Ida, my sweet lil sis intan ..and of cos, my fmly!..dira, hanim, emi n mamau yg wish gak..thanx!

and..to mr jauhari and his bro, mr budi..hehe..

to those yg x wish, hehe..its ok..i know u guys probably makan semut byk sgt!haha

mmm..wish?

what i wish for this year's bufday..

1- i wish ill be employed by a company..hehe (hopefully!)

2- i REALLY wish ida is here, celebrating this wonderful day with me..

3- i wish for a bufday cake also..mmm..( dad wont buy it for me..coz dah blanje pizza n tgk movie)

4- i wish that this"someone" will msg me and say.."happy birthday"!

5- and how i wish i could turn back time..ermm..maybe year 2000..

erm..but i realize that W.I.S.H is just a word..and anybody can even say it..even though not on his/ her birthday..hmmmm..

so guys, doa kan laa smoga aku panjgn umur n sempat nak membalas segala jasa2 ibu n ayah..kan? yeah..this one is the perfect one!

..to ibu n ayah, thanks soo much for everything that u guys had done for me during this superb 23 years..u guys gave me a perfect and a wonderful life...

chalomere bette~

MahliGaiMu DarI Air mAtaKu...

If im not mistaken, this song was a bit popular around 1990 -an.. and i still can remember the lyrics even mase tuh aku kecit lg..hehe..kecit2 dah jiwang agaknyer..suddenly terjumpe the karaoke video version for this song..enjoy..




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